Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Here it is the Fall and I am definitely feeling that I am transitioning.
Just like the woods around me I feel the rumblings of change. I am glad that I live in a part of the world where we have four distinct seasons. However, this means there is always loss, as well as gain, as we move from one season to the next. It is also a reminder of the passage of time. As a parent the passage of time is always visible as new shoes and clothes have to be bought to accommodate growing bodies.
Last summer I was not in transition. I was doing all the same things that I had been doing for years. Although our haven in the woods was new and our exploration of this particular region was too. My inner view was much as it had always been. I hadn't yet expressed my yearning for a creative outlet. That took hold after the seasons changes, in the deep winter. It had been rumbling for a long time. I had made attempts to express it but had not been successful. Until now.
Of course the biggest transition for me is entering cyberspace again. I had been off this grid for about three years. I found having a family and busy private practice all I could handle. When I left work I needed to shut down and focus on my family. As my kids have gotten older and more independent I have felt able to reenter this virtual world. And I am thrilled to be back, in a way I couldn't have imagined. I never knew that I would be able to combine my need for creative expression with the ideas that I have been developing during my therapeutic work. It is a gift to work with people as I do and I am so grateful to be able to take what I have learned and extend it. I am still in transition and am trying to remember to enjoy this stage of my growth process. I am trying to quieten my feelings of loss, leaving my comfort zone, and remind myself of the gain. I have to repeatedly tell myself that learning stems from both.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
My office in the woods is a bright blue adirondack chair purched on top of the Canadian Shield. Each morning I climb to this high point to have my cup of tea and begin reflecting. I love to get up and slip away before the others awake. Of course I leave a note but even if I didn't there is no secret about where I have gone. Eventually they will find me.
As I sit in my chair I try to decide if I will take myself off for an early ride on my beloved bike before my family makes claims on my day. Is there really any other choice? Off I go and feel yet another level of calm when the trees on this trail envelope me as I duck to pass under their green canopy. I try to drink in all the air, beauty and moisture before the weather changes. There was definitely a bit in the air as I set out and I know that the season is changing.
Later in the day when I am hiking on this very same trail with my family we come across yet another wonder. It is an old Mica Mine in the middle of the woods. Sitting on this site precariously close to the edge of the hill lays this old boiler with no obvious explanation of how it got there. There is so much history in this area I think it will keep us searching for answers for many more seasons to come.
Finally we are at the end of our summer weekends and are heading out of the woods feeling sad that the season has come to a close but much better for having been on this adventure. We know we will be back to explore as the leaves turn their glorious shades of golds, reds, oranges and yellows.
Friday, September 3, 2010
We are also planning a Launch Party to be held this month. It should be a lot of fun. I will give a short talk about The Girl Within. Then we will just mingle, eat goodies and chat. Should be a nice evening out. I'll keep you posted about the date.